i just realized that shopping can't always fix your problems or make you feel better. bc you always come home to the same problems and the same crappy feelings.

but at least i have cool shit.

i need to get up off my sorry ass and do something with my spring break. like, getting fucking drunk. i wish i could go to bars. ughh. not cool.

i need to stop worrying. i need to stop crying. i need to get a hold of myself. i need to learn how to trust. but i need to not be a fool.

do you ever wish that you could give someone all of your emotions so that they know what youre going through? i wish i coudl do that. i need to do that. although i dont wish this feeling on anyone. anyone. 'cept maybe one person. and i dont even know them..

fucking bitch.

i hate london bugs. they wake me up and creep me out.

its funny sometimes how things work out. especially when you least expect it.

Go to the music player of your choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud and press play. Use the song titles as your answers. No cheating!

How does the world see me?
Song: Oops I Did It Again
Artist: Britney Spears
Comments: I guess I make a lot of mistakes and people notice haha.

Will I have a happy life?
Song: Must Get Out
Artist: Maroon 5
Comments: Thats depressing

What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Behind These Hazel Eyes
Artist: Kelly Clarkson
Comments: umm.i dunno

Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Reasons
Artist: Ryan Cabrera
Comments: I guess that means yes."Yah and don’t you leave me alone in this life. If you believe in your self now sometimes. Then I’ll believe in you. But That there’s reasons darling you’ll never know"


How can I make myself happy?
Song: (If Youre Not in It For Love) I'm Outta Here
Artist: Shania Twain
Comments: Guess thats kinda good advice

What should I do with my life?
Song: Split Screen Sadness
Artist: John Mayer
Comments: Once again..kinda depressing

Why should life be full of so much pain?
Song: This Love
Artist: Maroon 5
Comments: Loev bites, man. haha

Will I ever have children?
Song: Take Your Sweet Time
Artist: Jesse McCartney
Comments: Good advice.

Will I die happy?
Song: All Jacked Up
Artist: Gretchen Wilson
Comments: I will die of alchohol poisoning but I will be having the time of my life.

What is some good advice for me?
Song: I Hope I Dont Fall In Love With YOu
Artist: Marc Cohn (The Prince and Me)
Comments: Good song. and I seem to be getting a lot of advice out of this.

What is happiness?
Song: Penny Lane
Artist: Beatles
Comments: yea ok

What is my favourite fetish?
Song: Infatuation
Artist: Christina Augilera
Comments: My fetish is foriegn guys apparently. And its kinda a conincidence haha.

How will I be remembered?
Song: Class
Artist: Chicago Soundtrack
Comments: Guess I'm just that classy. hahaha

http://kevan.org/johari?name=bsbbutterfli77

eh bored.
do it. you know you want to.

Everyones doing it according to Mary..

1. My uncle once: cracked my back..hes a chiropractor

2. Never in my life have I: skydived or had a taco

3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile: eliza and my valley girls becuase we just love each other that much

4. High School is: Drama with a capitol D

5. When I'm nervous: I play with my earrings

6. The last time I cried was: surprisingly a while ago

7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be: my sisters

8. The craziest recent event was: deciding to drink on a tuesday and loving it

9. If I was a character on Friends I'd be: i dunno..i never really watched friends

10. By this time next year: i will have studied abroad and married pronce harry..heres to hoping!

11. I have a hard time understanding: time travel lol mary

12. You know I "like" you if: i clam up around you and im really bad at flirting but you can usually tell from my body language

13. If I won an award, the first person(people) I'd thank is: my parents

14. Take my advice: Try something even if youre the only one who believes you can do it or supports you.<< my advice to myself this week

15. My ideal breakfast is: HASH BROWNS. a bagel. crispy bacon. and more HASH BROWNS. yum!

16. If you visit my hometown: We'll drink lots of coffee. Hang out at B&N and Eddies. BOth of which have coffee

17. Where do you plan to visit anytime soon: London in the fall :) yay!!

18. If you spend the night at my house: youre one lucky bi-atch

19. I'd stop my wedding if: I wasnt in love. duh.

20. The world could do without: terrorism. from other countries and ours alike

21. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: shave my head

22. Most recent thing someone else bought for you: was my mom just put a buttload of money in my checking account so i guess that counts

23. The last time I was high: never

24. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: elephants..aw dumbo

25. I shouldn't have been: so dependant but now im learning

26. Once, at a bar: i had an awful time with jeannie in LA bc people are f'n weird

27. Last night: i procrastinated and went to a pi nu meeting

28. There's this girl I know who: is beautiful and her name is eliza

29. This guy I know: is wonderful, but you can't make things happen. (i dunno if this relates to me but i liked what mary wrote bc its true man)

30. A better name for me would be: something more original than sarah



so im definatly rushing a sorority this semester. it took me long enough to decide to do it on my own even tho some people dont think i should or support me the way id like them too. I AM NOT DOING IT TO PAY TO GET FRIENDS. (that comment was to no one who would be reading this)
it should be fun and i'm so excited. its gunna be a REALLY busy semester but i'm cramming as much as i can into my schedule before london so I can live it up there.

oh and I declared my minor today. I'm a International Studies minor. :) should be fun too.

todays a very productive day so far. and now i shoudl lean my room and start working on my 349376 papers that i have due next week. oh and watch the OC.

getting drunk on a Tuesday night is fun. Who would've thought??

people dont steal things at ship
dungeons and dragons
humping..
..on wednesdays
peacing
white trash
being irish
a broken pant fly
half pregnant chick
dumping out beer in a closet..
..and covering it with clothes
"do you play basketball?"
"no. do you bowl?"
"umm..shes 15."
b&a
trying to figure out time travel
"ship is probably a nice place to meet a husband"
driving way to long to eat
driving in a clown car
coat models (ps I'm J-Lo)
birthday miracles
"do i gotta cut a bitch?"
stealing plates
not stealing the cheese grater
circle of death
mary drinking WATER
brunches are fabulous

<33333 Mary more than life.
can't wait to visit temple with my entourage. :)

peace out.